Bulgaria Adoption

So here we are again, starting another exciting adoption!  We have chosen to go with the country of Bulgaria; this is where God keeps directing our hearts.  There is great need for children with disabilities to be adopted and we are requesting a little boy, age 0-3, with minor/moderate special needs.  We will be looking at waiting children’s lists and praying that the Lord would grant us much wisdom as we wait and eventually choose a little boy.  The timeline is approximately anywhere from 10 months to 18 months.

Many of you know of the difficult adjustment Kayla has had, although we have not shared most of it on our blog.  Who could have imagined that a child so young, 9 months old when we brought her home, could have already been so deeply broken?  Rage, tantrums, defiance, and frustration characterized her for much of the first year after she joined our family.  There was very little progress with attachment and Kayla alternated from cold distancing to scratching and hitting during most interactions with either parent.  During one of her tantrums, I took her raging, angry little body into the other room and sat down with her.  I looked into her face and knew that she thought mommy was simply being mean.  My heart ached, and I realized she had no concept of how deeply I love her and desired her best.  I was reminded that it is with that kind of love that God loves us, only it is even deeper and perfect.  All I could do is tell her I love her.  With much love and prayer we have seen her grow into a delightful, happy little girl.  She still has a will of iron and has a quick temper, but these no longer define her or run her life.  Kayla has fully attached and runs to me for hugs, and every day, many times a day, tells me that she loves me.  We are coming up on 2 years with our little Kayla and thank God daily for the healing and wholeness that we are seeing in her life.

I mention Kayla’s story to explain what has brought us to the place of adopting again.  It breaks my heart when I think of what institutionalized children experience and what little hope they are given.  Our desire is to bring home a child that needs a family, a child that can grow up learning about the Lord and be loved.  Please pray for us as we continue down this road.  There is risk in what we are doing, and there will be difficult days ahead, but the desire of our hearts is to rescue and love a needy child.